I am looking for Matthew Vincent, he was a friend of me at Usenet but due to my psychosis several years ago we have lost contact. He had to endure my delusional tantrums in email and I want to apologize to him.
I am also looking for Gregory from Paris in France, he and I were pen pals in
email. We lost contact many years ago. We both were fans of Jayce and the Wheeled Warriors. We both liked Vantu very much!
Until next time
JWKalk
I am looking for Matthew Vincent, he was a friend
of me at Usenet but due to my psychosis several
years ago we have lost contact. He had to endure
my delusional tantrums in email and I want to
apologize to him.
Hello Jan-Willem,
I still read this newsgroup occasionally, but not very often. I'm preoccupiedwith other matters right now, and have a very busy schedule. Also, I have Aspergers, which impairs my organisation and time management.
It's nice to see you again. I hope you are well. I didn't feel offended orbothered by anything you said in email. I'm guessing that you have sometimes been rejected by other people in social situations in the past, and that you feel confused about why this is. So, you're left wondering what's OK to say and
You don't need to feel so guilty and apologetic all the time. You're a goodperson and you contribute positively to the world around you. You try your best
Here is my case formulation of you, as of last we talked, which admittedlywas several years ago. You most likely meet criteria for an Axis II delusional disorder, as your psychiatrist(s) diagnosed you with. An Axis II disorder is generally less severe than an Axis I disorder. You don't meet criteria for schizophrenia, which involves delusions, hallucinations and disordered thinking. You only have delusions, and those delusions that you have are not severe in intensity. Your logical understanding of causality is not impaired, but you sometimes engage in delusions as a defence mechanism to protect your self-esteem and manage core identity issues.
Psychiatrists often speak of "delusional guilt". My interpretation ofdelusional guilt is that it typically involves a negative schema, combined with
Your IQ seems to be above average (tests can measure it more precisely), andyou're smart enough to learn more than one language. Your vocabulary in English, which isn't your first language, is pretty good. Your ability to understand the world around you does not seem to be impaired, except for your negative self-image and delusions pertaining to yourself and your core identity. The Babylon 5 questions, such as "Who are you?" and "What do you want" are worth considering. They're not easy questions to answer. It's painful
Last we talked, you were comfortable and perhaps even enthusiastic aboutreceiving help and support in this newsgroup. Consequently, I'm assuming that you're consenting to hearing the above material publicly. Please accept my apologies in the event that this assumption of mine was inaccurate.
It's pretty quiet in here these days, and I'm not going to be around much.That's why I figured I'd give you this formulation now,
The reason we lost contact is not due to your psychosis, or anything aboutyou, or anything that you said or did. I simply got too busy doing other things, and lost contact with other people besides you. I'm not very good at keeping up with email correspondence. I'd lose my head if it wasn't screwed on.
Take care, and I wish you all the best. I'll hopefully see you on thisnewsgroup again sometime.
I still read this newsgroup occasionally, but not very often. I'm preoccupied with other matters right now, and have a very busy >schedule. Also, I have Aspergers, which impairs my organisation and time management.
It's nice to see you again. I hope you are well. I didn't feel offended or bothered by anything you said in email. I'm guessing that >you have sometimes been rejected by other people in social situations in the past, and that you feel confused about why this >is. So, you're left wondering what's OK to say and what isn't. Social situations must feel like an invisible minefield to you,and >this must be a tough burden to live with. You are very brave and strong to continue trying your best in the face of all this.
You don't need to feel so guilty and apologetic all the time. You're a good person and you contribute positively to the world >around you. You try your best in the face of difficult circumstances that are beyond your control. Thereare plenty of selfish >jerks around, and you're not one of them. That janitor you told me about seems like a nasty bully and a prize idiot.
Here is my case formulation of you, as of last we talked, which admittedly wasseveral years ago. You most likely meet criteria >for an Axis II delusional disorder, as your psychiatrist(s) diagnosed you with. An Axis II disorder is generally less severe than >an Axis I disorder. You don't meet criteria for schizophrenia, which involves delusions, hallucinations and disordered thinking. >You only have delusions, and those delusions that you have are not severe in intensity. Your logical understanding of causality >is not impaired, but you sometimes engage in delusions as a defence mechanism to protect your self-esteem and manage >core identity issues.
psychiatrists often speak of "delusional guilt". My interpretation of delusional guilt is that it typically involves a negative schema, >combined with an impairment in your ability to use rational evidence to counter the negative thoughts you've had about >yourself.
Your IQ seems to be above average (tests can measure it more precisely), and you're smart enough to learn more than one >language. Your vocabulary in English, which isn't your first language, is pretty good. Your ability to understand the world >around you does not seem to be impaired, except for your negative self-image and delusions pertaining to yourself and your >core identity. The Babylon 5 questions, such as "Who are you?" and "What do you want" are worth considering. They're not >easy questions to answer. It's painful to be yourself, so you use delusions as a form of escapism.
Last we talked, you were comfortable and perhaps even enthusiastic about receiving help and support in this newsgroup. >Consequently, I'm assuming that you're consenting to hearing the above material publicly. Please accept my apologies in the >event that this assumption of mine was inaccurate.
It's pretty quiet in here these days, and I'm not going to be around much. That's why I figured I'd give you this formulation now, >for you to take away with you if you wish. I'd like to be clear that nothing I say to you online cantake the place of formal >therapy in "real life" in your local area. So, if you're seeing professionals such as a psychiatrist or clinical psychologist, please >be guided by them. If you wish to print out this post of mine and show it to a professional you're seeing locally, please feel free >to do so.
The reason we lost contact is not due to your psychosis, or anything about you, or anything that you said or did. I simply got >too busy doing other things, and lost contact with other people besides you. I'm not very good at keeping up with email >correspondence. I'd lose my head if it wasn't screwed on. Your apology is definitely accepted, and wasn't necessary in the first >place.
Take care, and I wish you all the best. I'll hopefully see you on this newsgroup again sometimeI am visiting it on a daily basis now I have found you
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